Chaos and Laundry Everywhere

I am completely miserable, overwhelmed and sad. I don't even know where to start. I live with a man who is mentally 16 and thinks it's ok. He doesn't care about any responsibilities outside of work  and can't be bothered to care. He has little respect for me or my family. Why am I still here? I ask myself on a daily basis. I don't even know.

So I plan and pay for a surprise birthday party for him. Not only did his friends stiff me for $100 worth of alcohol, I wasn't thanked once, wasn't told that he had fun, nothing. Today, I bust my ass doing chores, he sits on his ass watching TV. I ash him to help put away the groceries, he REALLY can't because he's playing a video game. Why am I still here?

Sometimes Mama just needs a day to herself. Kid is in daycare, C is at work and I have the house to myself for the first time in a long, long time. Binged on Netflix, did laundry, took a nap. It was glorious.